Unmet Expectations?

I am such a movie nerd. So naturally, I watched the Oscars as many teenagers did. Honestly, I expected more. There are so many beautifully made films in this world, yet all of the awards were focused on maybe 5 films?!? We are talking about an entire years worth of films here! It makes me wonder if things like these are corrupt. Like, did these 5 films pay to receive special attention? Imagine being a director or a producer, and you give your life into this film, only to be beaten by some movie that has won 5 other awards already. Sure, some deserved it, but I think that many other movies throughout the year could have at LEAST been nominated!! After hours of listening to "I'd like to thank *insert people we dont know's name here* sob sob thanks!!!", I got rather uninterested in the whole deal. But hurray for Alice In Wonderland for winning/being nominated!!!! Its the movie that I love dearly. I think I've seen it over 20 times.

A twist of Perspective

Here in Arizona, it NEVER rains. But tonight, the rain pours down at last. From my own observation: What tends to happen is that it will only ever rain at night and by morning, not a cloud in the sky. In the off chance that it rains during daylight hours, all Arizonians seem to be in such a great mood. Have you ever thought about that ONE thing that makes you happy and will never fail to bring a smile to your face even once? Well, everyone has that one thing and rain is mine. People think I'm crazy when I see rain and bolt outside in excitement (ah the poor non understanding non Arizonians...) . But everytime I feel that rain I cant help but flash a huge smile and laugh. I like to think that rain is a little reminder from God that everything will be okay. I know, I know. What is this? Theological concepts from a young blogger? I guess its just one of those things that teens ponder but never really   talk about out loud. In my theology class last year we had a guest priest.
QUESTION: Will my dog go to Heaven with me?
ANSWER: If you need your dog to be eternally happy, then yes.
I thought this was a beautiful, well thought out, non-cliche answer that made me think.
A rainy Heaven? We'll have to see!

~CB

Do Your Kids Accuse You Of Ruining Their Social Lives? | Parenting | GalTime

Do Your Kids Accuse You Of Ruining Their Social Lives? | Parenting | GalTime

Check out this link! I feel so bad for my friends who are always in trouble for the stupidest things. Parents, we arent bad children and we arent your personal slaves so relax and dont be on our case all the time!! Today is one of those days where my mom turns her nose up and doesnt let me go out for no reason at all.

Mission Impossible 2 Accomplished!

Not really... But I felt that an allusion would make the title spicier. That word looks so odd. spicy-er. Do you ever reflect on a particular word? Like, this morning, I pondered the word "fact." The C-T next to each other are hardly enunciated and its difficult to say in a single syllable. Why did someone chose that word to represent the truth? And whose to say that a fact is a fact? I ponder words often? Weird, ya, I know, Not the point.


I accomplished a life goal today. Ride in a Mercedes e320. Its my dream car. On my bucket list is to ride in one, and it was soooo glamorous!!! I am such a car fanatic. Well, all teens have a subject that they know too much about I guess XD. Since I'm going to college soon, I've been thinking of my future a LOT. And that includes my bucket list! The things are mental, so I cant remember them all, but heres a few:
*Get a foreign romance
*Get a summer romance
*Move to Toronto
 *Ride in my dream car
*Graduate university
*Be in Time Square when the ball drops on New Years

~CB vs ~CB?

 Was Aaron Carter the Justin Bieber of the 90s? I looooved Aaron when I was a little tot. So being a fan, I never noticed how feminine he was. People want Justin to vanish, but go on any anti-pop genre song on Youtube and in the last 10 comments, at least one comment will be on Justin Beiber! 


EXPERIMENT TIME! Ill go to my ipod. Not itunes, because i hate itunes and uninstalled it. First song to come up: Drops of Jupiter ~ Train. Justin Bieber comment? Certainly is! "I wanna know why Justin Bieber is brought up in anything. Seems like every video I watch there his name is when he dont have shit to do with anything."  This person was talking about the excessive amount of comments on him and frankly, I agree. He wont go away if you keep talking about him on every freaking Youtube video. I guess you either love him or you hate him. Controversy Controversy.


In other news.... I went on that date. Yes, It was a date. But I was so quiet!! Like, normally I'm very easily excited and chatty. But around him, I could only say 2 word sentences. Ugh. I bet he thinks I'm boring. Why cant I be myself? And why doesn't google chrome auto correct "cant" to "can't"?

Its a Date! ...I Think? Maybe. Eek!

I got a date! Well.... okay its just a guy who wants to "catch up" at a movie. But you dont talk in movies ya goof! Unless he talks through movies. Oh I hope he doesnt. I wonder what itll be like! If it goes well, he might ask me out. If he asks me out, Ill ask him to the Sadie Hawkins dance. Maybe he'll kiss me goodnight? Oh gosh. Look at silly old me. I jump to conclusions. What if it goes badly and he thinks im a freak? Would I say yes if he asked me out? He's kissed my cheek before... Im so nervous! Oh the racing thoughts.... EEK


My oh my, I sound like some geek that no one loves who got her first date ever. This is not the case my dears. But that fuzzy feeling when you get your first kiss, it doesnt go away! If you get a new boyfriend, you dont go "oh ive been kissed a hundred times before, its no big deal." NO! you go eek!

~CB

Guurl, You so Fake!

Dear Teenagers: STOP QUOTING FACEBOOK!!!!!!!! I hear soooo many people trying to pass on a "like" as their own stories. example:
I like turtles because they're so chill. They don't hurt anyone. They're just like, "Hey man, I want to swim, and maybe eat some lettuce. But I'm gonna take my time getting there, I'm not in a rush. Because I'm a turtle."
Then on the bus the day after everyone went on a liking spree of this, a guy goes "wow, you've never held a millipede before? They're so chill. They just squirm around all slow and look around and be like Yo im a millipede"
another example because this rant is rantish enough for 2 examples:
"When I get pulled over, I tell the cops 'when you tazor someone, you should say pika CHUUU!!!'"
then you hear a person at school go "I was just pulled over and told a cop he should yell pikachu when he tazors someone."
REALLY?! You OBVIOUSLY would never say that and you probably dont even have a car. 
WAY TO BE ORIGINAL!
Rant-over.
~CB

It Was The Best of Times, It Was the Worst of Times

This little nerd kid in my math class knows Hamlet really well. He's friends with Pierre so I guess he's not as nerdy as I thought. Funny how just one little thing can change your view on a person completely!


So lots of teens nowadays are suicidal. I wont go into speaking about myself.... But have you ever really thought about what you truly live for? Friends don't count. Most of the friends you have in high school wont even follow you through life, so why live for them? I think if people actually found their own little sanctioned thought, people's minds would be more at ease. We're in high school, our whole lives ahead of us! Unless you don't have goals of course! What do I live for, you may ask? I live for the feeling of sunshine on my face. Not "oh, the suns out, hurray" But for that time when you can really feel the warm sun on your face. Gosh, how cheesy. But I think all people need something to pull them out from under at one point or another. It makes you think, doesnt it?
~CB

Its All In Your Head, Darling.

Ah its 1:40 AM. Im tired, yet i dont feel compelled to get off of my laptop even though there is nothing left for me to do on it. This happens often. Does this happen to anyone else?


Now, Getting to the point! Have you ever thought that your mind is more powerful than you think? No, this is not one of those, "Don't feel down my dear... I know your self conscious and think your stupid. But your not! your mind is great!" kinds of things. This is all on scientific stuff. Hurray for nerds? They say (who is they anyways?) that your mind can do stuff. Lol idk how else to say it really. For instance, you have a cut. You didnt notice it before. So it didnt hurt. Now when you look and see that you have a cut, it starts hurting because you know its there. Because pain is all in your head. I was terrified of bugs biting me in my sleep because I saw a bug flying around the house. I woke up with like 15 bug bites on my inner calf, an unusual (the word unusual has an abnormal amount of u's. Just noticed) place for bites. No one else had them and there were no signs of bugs on my bed. My cousin says its all just in my head. Now, this could be true or I really could have been bitten. You never know, you know?? That got me thinking. And its really fascinating to me.


Read it or not, here it comes! There was an experiment where a person moves there finger. They say "now" as they move their finger. So obviously the nerves or whatever would come from your brain then tell your finger to move, yes? WRONG! The test showed that there was nerve (or whatever) activity from the subject's finger, THEN showing the brain activity AFTER it moved. AKA The finger moved before the mind would have told it to. Conspiracy? Fascinating!
~CB

A Day in the Life

So most of my posts title's have been songs. That wasnt my goal, but okay, it works.


So today I got to go to the barn to ride my darling horse Tyler. He's not mine but I lease him. It was sooo hot out. in February. When it should be snowing. Anyways. I was fine when I was going but when we went down to the walk, I felt terrible and out of breath and about to pass out. That happens to me a lot when I wake up then go ride. If I go after school then its all good. Ugh. Stupid lack of electrolytes. But the ride was good. I jumped a little even tho I wasnt supposed to. Shh, hehe.


I also went to a friends party. Pierre was there. Just my luck.... it got awkward when we played Never Have I Ever, and at other times. I just wish he'd go away. Oh the things that happen when our ex's are around.... I think my cough fetish is getting stronger. Its my pet peeve when people cough around me. Even if they turn away or cover their mouths, I have to look away ASAP and not breathe that air. Germaphobes unite!
~CB
P.S:  how journal-esque this post is! Is blog synonymous for diary? Well I guess this is an intro to future thoughts on me? Sure lets go with that. Sorry?

Silly Little Girls...

Here's from a girl whose seen it all. Private school and Public School. Yikes. How incredibly different they can be. A little observation from yours truly.... You know what confuses me so much?? Private school girls were alwayssss dress coded for having their shirts untucked. Us girls follows a systematic routine: Sit through H period, look at the clock constantly, sit anxiously through announcements, hear the bell, stand up, untuck our shirts! It was a simple system. The rule was to tuck our shirts in, so the second we had the chance, we no longer followed that rule. Its simple teen logic here! How at public school, all of the girls (Ahhhh generalization!! Sue me. hush.) are fretting about if their shirt is tucked into their skirts properly! YES! they wear skirts and tuck shirts into them on purpose! I will never understand.... :?

Lets Get Down To Business

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSS5dEeMX64 Hehe the first few seconds gave me an unexpected chuckle. Explanation? The title. It made me think of those lyrics we all know and love. I didnt make the title cuz of the song. unintentional joke. Is that like a pun? hm. I dont know. Oh well. Disney is beast regardless.  ANYWAYS


Lets talk boys. Yuck. How cliché. We hate them, love them, cant live without them. Are those song lyrics? Well its some form of allusion that just doesnt come to mind. Ive been watching Degrassi since the new episode comes on today (SO EXCITED). Ya, i watch Degrassi. Thats the ONLY overly dramatized show i watch, i promise! Now Eli, he's such a dear. Clare is so helpless and lost, and all Eli does is be there for her. He doesnt go "What a psycho messed up chick. I dont need this." If only legit guys like that happened to come along. You lucky duck readers who have one, congrats.  Thsoe guys who do random acts of kindness like... Return your phone to your house at night instead of the next morning, or find you after school to return your glasses rather than giving them to your teacher, or just asking "how are you?" those guys are the truely darling ones, to me anyways. What do you guys love? For me its the small things and surprises. Predictable.


YAY FLASHBACK.
So I dated a guy for 11 months and 2 weeks. I gave him everything, he dumped me 2 weeks later. How incredibly cliché. Hm, reoccurring theme. Weird how that works out! I was devastated. Recent thoughts: I have no feelings for... lets call him Pierre. But anytime I see Pierre with another girl, I just wanna punch her and tell her to get away from My Guy. Again, no feelings. Its like im protective of him. Has that ever happened to anyone else?? Its WEIRD.
~CB

Whats In a Name?

So I was gonna have my first ever post say "Who needs intros? Intros imply that theres a complete thought. As a teenager, my thoughts dont follow a specific plot. Also as a teenager, I hate restriction and rules" Now.... I was gonna support that thought with the definition of an introduction. Which is "the act of beginning something new." And thats exactly what this post represents. So... Woopsies. Plus my original idea makes me sound like some punk. Have you ever said something that didnt come out right at all? So much for first impressions :p.

Well Hi. Im ~CB. Der. Thats not my name. But... aliases (aliai...? alias'...? Okay its aliases. Thank goodness for Google) are cool. Now then, welcome 8)